After the difficult of the past several months, this trip to Paris (we leave tonight!) is like a pinnacle for Mr. Q and me. It is so much more than *just* a trip to Paris.
This trip to Paris represents a dream come true that I had once resigned myself to thinking would never happen. When I posted these fears a few years ago, I was literally crying while writing it - the fear of never achieving a dream moved me to tears.
This trip to Paris represents our commitment to making a GOOD marriage. It was in the middle of a difficult period back in January when he e-mailed me and said that he had accumulated enough airline miles for two tickets to France and to start planning. As we worked through that challenging period, it was the idea of this long awaited trip in our future that served as one of the motivations to work on things. I wanted to walk along the banks of the Seine with someone I was madly in love with and not have the slight "frisson" of any tension or edge between us. At the time, my heart ached worrying that things might not get better, but at the same time knowing that they would, simply because they had to.
This trip to Paris represents the dreams of a young girl and one of the first things I ever had to work hard at in my life ! When I was 14 I decided to take French in high school. It represented so much more than a choice over Spanish, German, or Latin. It represented something exotic and foreign and sophisticated - all the things I wanted to grow up to be. In continuing my French studies in college, it became very difficult and completing a French minor represented less of a dream and more of something that I had to triumph over, lest it beat me.
This trip to Paris represents Mr. Quimby's dreadful travel schedule for work. Mr. Quimby purchased our airline tickets and our hotel stay almost solely with his frequent flyer and hotel points, so the trip represents the sacrifices he makes for our family by traveling for work (and the work I do to keep our home and family running in his absence).
C'est vrai, ce n'est pas un reve. Je suis voyager a Paris ! It is true, it is not a dream. I am traveling to Paris !