Friday, September 5, 2008

A few hours later

I'm more relieved because I was thinking of all I would have to give up. But I'm also more upset wondering why I can't find the right thing to balance it all.

And I'm kind of PISSED because it seems that my only choices are to turn my kids over to someone else for 9 hours a day, 5 days a week OR to not work at all and put my family on a slippery financial slope. We're not destitute by any means because we haven't spent frivolously in a long, long time. And by WE I mean ME because David had never spent frivolously. And frivolously for me was NOTHING by most people's standards. But me working means that we are able to have extras like eating out, birthday gifts and Christmas gifts and, most importantly, to save for the "big" things that are bound to come our way soon: car and house repairs.

And then I'm even more pissed at myself for all this upper middle class whining (waa, waa, I can't find a job that takes advantage of my skills and experience in order to feel professionally fulfilled, poor me, waa, waa). I mean COME ON, it's enough to make me nauseous!

STOP YOUR F-ING WHINING ALREADY THRIFT STORE MAMA AND GO MAKE YOUR CRUDITE PLATTER FOR YOUR MOM'S NIGHT OUT TONIGHT OR AT LEAST GO TAKE A SHOWER FOR THE LOVE OF GAWD!!!

wow, i feel better. except I've spent so much time whining I don't have time for a shower now.

4 comments:

The Lowe said...

Showers can wait, a good whine can't. Enjoy yourself tonight.

Laurie said...

But what a great crudite platter---you kicked butt!
Laurie

Sue said...

Whine away. It stinks. I found an awesome PT job at a not-for-profit on Craigslist last summer. Using my degree, exactly the field I want to work in. $10/hr. Uhhh... childcare x 4... I don't think so.

Rebecca said...

You know what, I feel the same way. I'd love something part time-ish that paid well. Just like you said, for extras. If you find the answer, let me know!

 
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