Tuesday, March 18, 2008

I have lost the forest

I can no longer see the forest for the trees. I am tired, so so tired that I want to cry. Ruthie goes down for the night at 8:30pm and then wakes at 11:45pm, 1:15am, 3:30am, 5:45am and then I have to get up around 7am (earlier if I actually want a shower). She still refuses her baby cereal most days and has also shown no interest in avocado. So basically, this 8.5 month old is still exclusively breastfed. I am not at all worried about her nutritionally ~ I am worried about her developing a food aversion, not being exposed to a variety of tastes and textures, and most of all I am wondering if she would sleep longer if she ate some food. I seem to recall from the most fabulous place in the world that the research is pretty consistent that ingestion of solid foods does not cause better or longer sleep, per se. It is just a coincidence because most babies start doing both around the same time.

David is wonderful about offering to help, but he's up with Esther at 6:30am and then he has to go to work. My theory is that my "job" isn't as hard and I have the potential to take a nap during the day (HA HA HA) so that if someone has to go without sleep, it should be me. But my "clients" can really truly suffer if I'm tired or cranky from lack of sleep, so maybe I need to rethink his offers of help.

The worst part is that I am usually SO GOOD when someone else is having a hard time - in my past professional life it was part of my job. And I think I'm pretty helpful at helping a friend figure things out. But I'm so tired I don't even know what to do first - work on the food or the sleep?

And if you are reading this thinking, "Wow, wish I had that problem!" with a sarcastic voice in your head, please don't. Even if your problems are "worse" than mine, it doesn't make me any less tired.

And now I have to go because Ruthie is crying and I just put her down for a nap 20 minutes ago. Sigh.


Mike said...

Aw damn. That message gave me the chills...It's Mike, by the way. Ellen, you are a great mom...and you're great at coming up with solutions. Hopefully, this is a teething situation...or it could possibly even be allergies. Hopefully, it will pass in the next 3 days. I know that may seem like forever, but you can make it through!

Please let your husband help. Maybe he'd be able to comfort Ruthie differently than you can during this time. You know kids are finicky. You never know. Let him help and get some rest.

I'll be prayin' for you!!

V said...

Maybe a growth spurt? She's ripe for one around now, right?

Fruit & veggies in the net thingie?

Pretty sure Pat would say she won't have a food aversion--as long as she's getting a variety of tastes through you.

Let David help, just for this week. If it is a growth spurt, things might be different by next week!

Sandy said...

I wish I lived closer so I could come and stay for a few nights and give Ruthie a bottle when she wakes during the night. You could wear ear plugs to bed and get a few nights of uninterrupted sleep!! Maybe you and David can work something out so he takes one night on the weekend at least! Your job is 24/7 and it is OK to ask for help!!

You look great in the bowling picutes I saw if that helps to make you feel any better!!

Sarah said...

Are you letting her cry it out 10 minutes? I find that Caroline gives up after 10 min if she wakes up before 2am. After that, she has all the time in the world. Make naps for you just a part of the routine until you get through this period....your job is WAY harder than going to an office and sipping on a diet coke at your desk. Give yourself a pat on the back...

Sandy said...

If you decide to follow Sarah's suggestion, please use a watch/clock to time how long you are letting her cry. I remember when Laura was a baby and we put her down to sleep, she would cry and cry and cry. To me it seemed like hours! Her Daddy was actually timing the crying and when I got up to go to her, he told me she had only been crying 3-4 minutes. I was really surprised by this. By the time the 10 minutes had passed, Laura was usually asleep. Just a suggestion I thought I would share.

Fiona said...

I feel for you Ellen - Sophie was almost doing the same thing (sleep wise) at exactly the same age. She was eating solids but such a small amount and nursing poorly during the day ... and nursing superbly during the night! I try to cope with all child-related issues with "and this too shall pass", but it was hard to keep up this mantra when my eyes were popping out of my head.

Lance ended up doing quite a few nights of looking after Sophie just so I could get some sleep. It made such a difference, and to be honest, Sophie seemed to sleep better/longer with Lance than with me.

So ... this too shall pass (I think ... surely Sophie and Ruthie wont get to be 2 before they sleep through, right?).

Love you!

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